March 27th, 2007 by 0lly

The same damm things, make my hair turn grey…

I have just had a phone call, gem hasnt got any cash left till she gets paid on friday, and i havent got enough money to go down and see her. Im gutted.

This is the first time she’s not been able to get down to my house (or visa versa) since we have started going out with each other - and i dont like it. I guess it gives me some time alone, although when im alone all i do is think about the business and my life. And i just get stressed out.

I might take my camera phone out with me tongiht, and go for a walk. I live on the edge of mansfield so i dont have to walk far to find some nice scenary.

i hate writing blog entries when i feel like this, as i bet they all sound so repetative! Sorry!

Entry over, im out…

March 22nd, 2007 by 0lly

My mum and dad split up when i was 6 years old. Now, many people blame their fat-ness or depression on things like parent splitting up, but to be honest i didnt see it as a problem. My parents still got on with each other, they just drifted apart.

But i dont know wether or not that has meant the relationship with my father never realy developed properly. (i only saw him at weekends, and then only when he was waking me up, giving me food or taking me home) He was always there for me, and made sure i did right instead of wrong, but there seemed to be something lacking in his fatherhood that i think is starting to show through now.

I feel really uncomfortable/un-noticed sometimes when i go round to his house, i feel like he has no faith or doesnt really trust me to do the things i say im gonna do. And its like hes not even realy that bothered about the things i say - im very good at analysing people (not good at spelling tho) and i can tell that the things i talk about dont even sink in - he just nods and then gets distracted and pays his attention to someone or something else.

Now, there is nothing wrong with him taking the grandad role with his new family, as he does it really well.. I just feel that if i had a son that he’d be the most important thing in my life..
Its probably all my fault, i have been so useless with money, and as i was kicked out at 18 ive had to learn from my own mistakes for years and years. And i bet they are starting to get pissed off bailing me out. That go’s for my mum too. I darent ever ask my mum or dad for a bit of money, even just £10 - as they have bailed me out hundreds of times, and its always about money.

Even now, i sit here - £17 to my name PANICING as i have no idea how i am going to make it through this weekend, but i wont ask anyone for help cos im scared they’ll go mad.

I cant wait for the day where im older, and money just isnt the first problem that crops up in every situation i encounter. I dont want to be rich, honestly, i just want to not have to worry about money.

I guess im just being a mardy little attention seeking bitch. But its how i feel.

March 20th, 2007 by 0lly

Text talk is one of the most hated things i come across on forums, and in chatrooms etc. most people hate it, some people swear by it - and some people just dont see what the big fuss is all about!

I guess text talk came from early mobile phones, as it was an easy way to say what you wanted quickly, and keeping it all in one message. But thanks to the advances in technology (t9 dictionaries) and the advances in the operating system functionality, text talk should be a long and forgotten memory.

So why doesnt it just die?

I see more and more people coming onto the websites that i either own or co-run, and writing in TXT TLK. A few years ago, id of let them get away with it. Now i see it as simply being lazy. The worst part about it all is that 9 times out of 10, the TXT TLK word is the same length, or requires the same amount of effort to create - so its not even saving you any time?

I think the problem lies with fashion. In schools and colleges people make chavvy “websites” that pollute the internet with animated gif’s, backgrounds that make your eyes bleed and fucking text talk AlL lYk dIS So tHaT aLl dA tXT is iN dIfRNt SizES aN sHT.

Well this is me teling you now, PACK THE FUCK UP YOU ILLITERATE BASTARDS!

Stop absorbing retarded-ness-ness from twats such as Kwik Fit and Hula Hoops (their slogan - in a hole world of their own - or something equally stupid) And start paying attention at school.

Writing like a mongol is not cool, it makes you look like a fucking twat, and makes my life that little bit harder!

/Rant over

March 12th, 2007 by 0lly

First things first, saturday came round, and we had to lower gemmas car. I lowered the rears, then scott came along and did the fronts. We had it done and lowered for about 3:00pm.

Saturday night me and Gem had a night in, we’ve been having a few recently and they have been great. She gave me a full body massage, including a head massage. Ahh it was great.

Sunday was a great day too, we went to watch the rally!

Then whilst we were waiting we got covered in mud by someone who took the corner wrong!

Scott and Jody discussed the theory of reletivity.

On the way back, Gemma fell asleep!

When i got home i took pics of my new (toy) car!

And then this morning, my laptop charger got fixed (replacement STILL didnt fit) got my money thru from bank (more on that tomorrow) and i got my new inserts for my bumper!

It was a great weekend, i spent time with the most important person in my life, and i had fun watching cars go really fast!

Bingo bango!

March 9th, 2007 by 0lly

Im sure that everybody has heard the term “smack head” “bag head” “smack rat” or simply “Heroin Addict” but i really dont think that people realise the extent of the heroin problem in their town.

Take mansfield for example, more often that not if your walking through the Bus station, or the town center and someone will come up to you and ask for “20p for their bus fair” or “£1 to use the pay phone”. These people are what we like to call “The scum of the earth”.

The other day dave and myself were walking into our office, and we past a bit of a wall that has obviously been used to hide behind whilst one of the degenerates pinned up. We looked to the floor, and saw a burnt spoon. The burnt spoon is used to heat up the heroin so it turns to a liquid, then they suck it up in the syringe (look top left of picture) and inject it into their veins. Its a disgusting drug, its a drug that is so addictive the user will go out and steal so they can have some more. it destroys the mind, body and soul. And once a smack head, always a smack head. This is why its the odd one out. No other drug (ok, maybe crack) makes you go out and STEAL for your habit.

I think i need to go down and say something to the council, its disgusting, and that picture was taken RIGHT next to a main road. What happens if a child falls over and pricks themself on the needle? What happens is a child pics up the spoon and puts it near their mouth? And the worst part about it is, its the THIRD needle we have seen on teh floor near our work since we moved here!

Its a accident waiting to happen, and nearly 3 days later this particular needle and spoon have STILL not been cleaned up.

Ah fuck it, im ringing the council now.

March 6th, 2007 by 0lly

I know i dont blog much, but i sometimes i see something or witness something that makes me instantly think i want to blog that!

First off i was travelling to work this morning and i saw a billboard poster saying “GET JACK BACK”. Initially i thought it was something to do with the current episode of Lost, but then i realised it was a advert telling people to get sky so they could continue to follow Lost, as Sky1 had been sacked from NTL/Virgin Media.

Now ive spoke to many people about this, and i may of even blogged about it before, but personally i think Sky have played a blinder, and are now rubbing salt into the wounds of Mr Branson. Although, i wont dance and sing and tell the world Sky are better and ‘arder, as Richard Branson aint the sort of person that takes a blow like this lightly. He seems the kind of person that usually gets what he wants, one way or another. So maybe we’ll see Virgin1 start up to rival Sky1, or maybe we’ll see Virgin Media take a lot of programs off Sky like the Simpsons, or Friends or whatever and stick them on one of the channels already owned by Virgin Media.
Who knows? I do know this though - The Sky/Virgin battle has not yet finished. And my Moneys on Richard.
The second random awesome thing is today i saw my mate who i havent seen in 21 months as he’s been locked down. He has been released on day release and is out for 3 days, every so often. Its basically because he’s been good as gold and not given anyone any shit whilst inside. It was so mental to see him again tho, it was a beautiful day as the sun was shining we all nipped here and there in the car chatting away about the old times, and how things used to be. It was so crazy, it almost seemed like i had gone back in time about 2 years. Mental!

The third item in my list of randomness, is a little story about a tiny little cigarette shop and its grey haired owner. I popped into possibly the smallest fag shop in Mansfield, its next to iceland and the chemist in the front of the Rosemary Centre. I wanted some amber leaf (ooarrr) and it was price marked at £2.50 a pack. He asked for £2.40 - as that was the price he had on his little board thing. And i dont know about you, but that is the first time EVER that i have been sold a pricemarked product cheaper than the pricemark. Respect to you dude for not biting to corporate price increases! POWER TO THE LITTLE GUY! HOO HAAAA!

The final and kinda unexpected thing thats happened to me today, is that i popped into my bank to get some money and sort some charges out that have unlawfully gone out of my bank account, and it seems Lloydstsb have already taken some charges off my account as a sign of good will or some shit, and that something is currently pending on my account - and HOPEFULLY that means i MAY POSSIBLY be getting SOME or ALL of my CHARGES BACK!!!!

If i do, i may have some kind of seizure due to being so overwhelmed.

So all in all, a good day.

Im going home tonight and im going to treat my girlfriend to a nice cooked meal or something. Shes been a busy girl today so i expect she’ll be tired out.

Anyway, i have the maxxd blog to do, and i need to go home at some point

March 1st, 2007 by 0lly

Double trouble, vibe bubble, the arena
Ten years and we still got the fever
One for all when I’m looking for no leader
All you gotta do is know how to heat her
Dance floor introduce it to the sweeper
Lock it down, big sound, it’s a keeper
So stand clear and get ready for the creeper

A bangin’ tune, and i couldnt find the lyrics anywhere except on this youths blog, so i copied it for the world to read!

Im getting mark ronsons album today, and some lady sov. Its about time i had some new music.

Praise the lord of the torrents!