August 31st, 2006 by 0lly

I got home after picking up my rations for trax, and the carried my bags into the house. I put all my shit on the sides, as you do, and then went to put a few things in the freezer so they wouldnt go off. Now from day one we have had rules about space in the freezer, i have always had a shelf, when mat lived here he had one, and daz had one.

Obviously mat doesnt live here anymore - so daz can spill into the second shelf. I have no beef with that in the slightest. But all 3? And the fridge was about full, as were the cupboards. Ive never felt so un-noticed in my whole life. Its like he’d just forgotten i lived here or something? I managed to fit all my stuff in, but if i had bought a weekly shop id be screwed. Wardo, if your reading this - we need to sort something out ASAP!! :¬(

My night was improved by the time i got bathed etc. I had been let down by someone who was supposed to be getting our weed for the weekend, but i was soon sorted out and the night turned out to be a right laugh. I have been going out a hell of a lot more recently, and i think thats good for me as i do need to get out and see my friends more often, and its good so new members can find someone who will talk to them so they dont get made to feel unwelcomed.

I hate it when i hear people saying they came down but no one talked to them, its not hard to say hi to a bemused person whos stood in the corner on their own. I am guilty to not going over a few times, but its really hard as there is so many people i want to speak to and i get quite overwhelmed when there is a lot of people trying to talk to me at one time.

“I canny handle it captain! I just havent got the powerr!”

I have added plugins called Spam Karma and Bad Behavior to my blog, as reccomended by Lorrelle, a extremely helpful guy who replied to a post in my blog a few months ago. Spam Karma controls spam comments (ive been getting SHIT loads) and Bad Behaviour blocks spam bots from scanning my site. They both seem to be working great ! Thanks Lorrelle, Dr Dave and the people that make Bad Behavior! :¬)

Trax tomorrow, i have to be up very early! I will have SHIT loads of photos, videos and stories to tell when i get back. Its gonna be a mad one!

Peace out.

August 30th, 2006 by 0lly

I have been invited to join a private adidas only forum. I feel so honored!

My mate told me about it, but i wasnt sure if id get asked to join..

I got my email today! Woo!

August 30th, 2006 by 0lly

Every so often, i see myself getting totally uninteresting. I have had my “Write new post” page open ALL day, and i just couldnt think of anything to start it off with! Ive not really done anything apart from go out with scott in the car. My days are becoming a blurr of similarity.

After trax me, scott and ko have said we’ll stop smoking weed (bwhahaha) If we all try and do it, then its gonna be easier. As if i try and quit alone, scott has some.. or ko.. And visa versa. If we ALL quit, and help each other fill the empty voids of time  that willl suddenly occur, we should have a better chance of actually quitting.

I dont really wanna quit for my health, i wanna quit for financial reasons. If im gonna be renting a house then im gonna need to be very tight with my money. Which means no more subways.. no more weed.. and no more trainers I just hope i can get someone to move in with me as then i can split the bills 2 ways and it makes it a hell of a lot easier to live.

My heads up my arse in regards women and relationships at the moment. I want a girlfriend, but i dont want to go thru a traumatic breakup in a few years when i decide to do one. I guesss like stu said on a comment - 3 years is a long time for a relationship to develop, and thats plenty of time for it to fuck up But knowing me it wouldnt, it would go swimmingly, then id have to break both my heart and the heart of some girl as i board the train destined for the middle of knowhere.

But that doesnt mean i cant be happy, right? I guess i could always travel with a girlfriend, but TBH id be scared to do that in case something happened to her, or in case i met the woman of my dreams half way round the world. But whos gonna want to go out with someone, knowing they are not gonna be around for long. There has to be someone?

I miss those moments chillin out with someone sprawled all over me. I miss the walking round and holding hands. I miss the companionship of a female in my life. But should i try and hold these things off so that i dont get to attached?

Fuck knows.

August 29th, 2006 by 0lly

Ok, so looking at my pictures makes me remember what we were doing most of the weekend. Friday was a drissly afternoon.. Was out int eh car with scott, and IIRC we were all trying to find weed. Most of the afternoon was spent tryignt o track some greenage down. I dont even think we managed to in the end, its dry as a bone!

Saturday was the day of my MOT, so i had to get up fairly early. After i had finished that i went back home and started looking for somewhere else to live on the internet. I then of course got sidetracked and ended up posting crap on one of the many sites in affiliated with - like always Then me and dave went to Asda, and we moosed about for a few hours visiting local parks, just bummin about (oh, we’d found weed by that stage )

It was then time for me to work, i was in notts at some new housing estate just near john fox audi. If im honest it was the scaryest shift ive ever done. I dont like notts, i dont trust it. Especially when im cooped up in some site containing lots of stuff that was worth nicking. All i heard all ngiht was sirens. Police, Fire and ambulance. And when i say all night, i mean ALL NIGHT. One after the other, constantly!

Sunday was a cool day, i got home in the morning from doing my shift, and went to bed till 12pm. Scott woke me up ringing me saying he was outside. I fell back to sleep, scott woke me up again - but this time i got up and let him in. I got ready, and was finding it very hard to wake up. In true stoner style tho, i waked and baked - and by the time we got to the M1 i was wide awake and raring to go. It was the source show you see. They have one every year and it always rules.

We spent a few hours there, and the headed off back to wards the direction of mansfield, then we decided to go to skeg - so headed off in that direction, but just before we got to the toll bridge we changed ourt minds and drove back towards mansfield. We then went to my hosue so i could get ready, and headed off to LSOM.

Was a good turnout, and the only downside was that it rained! Where the hell has summer gone?

Then monday. Monday monday monday. bank holidays for me are either made up of work, or NOTHING. I ended up tidying my room, and cleaning trainers. I relaced some of my superstars, as i wasnt sure if i liked the arrangement i had goin off. Timmyroob came round and talked about his travelling - it made me green with envy! The thigns he was talking about, and the places/people he had seen and met just sounded amazing. I want to go ASAP, maybe i should try and save enough money to pay my debts off early, and just bum my way around this huge planet of ours? Hitchiking and sneaking on to trains
Off now to do some “work” - nearly time to go home, then i really must sleep for a hour to take the edge off!

August 28th, 2006 by 0lly

I hate it when i have 3 or so days off, as by the time i sit down to write about what ive done i have forgotten a lot of it. Im listening to a slow track by mary j and ghostface killah and its making me think that this weekend - although i cant remember it all - may be one of the last weekends where i can kick back without a care in the world.

Ive obviously got TRAX next weekend, but after that im probably gonna be moving into a new home and goin deeper into the whole life thing. Ive worked out that based on the amount of money i get paid from MMX3 alone (which isnt really a shit load) i can afford to pay my debts, and afford a flat/house at £295 a month (+ bills). It leaves me a measly amount a week to live off, but hopefully with the stuff me and dave are doing and the security i can earn a bit more than that, and can afford to still have a few luxuries in my life, like food.

Its gonna be very tough to start with. In fact if ive got to do it by myself, its gonna be VERY tough ALL the time. Im looking forward to it in some ways and not lookin forward to other aspects of it.. im gettin a bit fed up anyway with staring at things that constantly remind me of past relationships and happy times. I think i need a change, a new chapter in my life.

Im just not lookin forward to being a pez for a bit. I hate the thought if not having any money to buy things to cheer me up - like mars drinks - and having to stay in bored cos i have no cash to wax on crap.

Ah well, its not for a few weeks yet. Trax next weekend which should be interesting! There has been talk about people playing pranks on other people within and outside the club. I just hope things dont turn sour, and the people being pranked see the funny side of it. I dont care what people do to me - unless they fuck with my trainers - then blood will be spilled. Savvy?
Il write more about my weekend tomorrow when i review my photos, as im really tired and really cannot remember anything about the weekend at this moment in time.

Sionara.

August 25th, 2006 by 0lly

August 25th, 2006 by 0lly

Well. T’was only yesterday i was moaning about where i live, saying it annoyed me having to put up with someone as house trained as a 4 year old. Looks like i wont have to put up with it for much longer. I got in and gave him £10 that someone owed him, then appologised for smoking on his precious leather sette’s - TO which he replied “Id like you to move out”. He claims he cant handle having someone else living there any more, and that its to blame for a lot of the stress in his life. Hmm.. Me thinks hes using it as an oppertunity to get rid of me as i dont really do much shit wrong. Fuck it tho, im not fighting my case - i know when im not welcome.

I thought about moving in with mason, it would be pretty much the same boat im in now in the sence id have freedom and my own little space - BUT id still be living under someone’s rules. So ive decided to push the boat out and look for a flat of my own. I have seen one that  would be able to afford and viewing for it starts 1st september. So i could maybe go see it on the 4th if its still available. IM gonna ring up today.

It came as quite a shock when he blurted it out last night, he says he doesnt want us to fall out - and im not gonna fall out with him. I guess there comes a time when a guy wants to roam about in the buff and be able to do anything and everything and not have to worry about what someone else is gonna do/where someone else is gonna be etc. I know there are times where i just want to be alone, most of the time in fact. But if im being honest this has come a bit too soon for my liking..

I told my mum and she instantly said i could go back to live with her. I should jump at the chance, it would mean i could save a lot of money - but i have a double bed, a desk and LOTS AND LOTS of stuff. I cant get rid of it now its cost me too much money. And i know that if i go back there will be the same problems we had before, i would feel 16 again - curfew’s n shit..

Im gonna do some maths, and work out what living in a flat would cost me. And work out how many 12 hour shifts id need to do in a week to successfully cover my bills.. The flat ive seen is 3 bedroomed.. Maybe i could get a lodger?

August 24th, 2006 by 0lly

Thats what i think to my fixed penalty notice! fuckers! (i will pay it like…)

I forgot to mention that fee and holie paid for everything last night, so thanks for that you two! Its good to know i have friends who will do things like that. Me and hol havent exactly had the most flowery past, but recently ive started to get on with her very well. Shes become a good addition to my female friends group. Fee is, well.. Ive never quite met anyone who’s vocabulary is quite as full on! She makes me laugh a lot, and seems to know a lot about law and other useful stuff. They said they would come and rescue me next time im stranded on a securty shift. That is good to know tbf, cos i often need rescuing.

Err, yeah.. i just wanted to post a pic of me skinnin up on my fixed penalty notice.. Ha!

August 24th, 2006 by 0lly

Had a pretty shite day at work yesterday - i have quite a lot of annoying work i have to acheive and it makes me want to walk out its so repetative and boring. I got a text later in the day from dave, saying that Hollie and Fee wanted to meet up with us to discuss some sales work they are going to be doing for us. We met up in the King and Miller, and we started to chat and stuff. They are both sound girls, and both have their heads screwed on. They are gonna be following up DIR leads for us, trying to recuit people onto our ever growing directory. We had some food, discussed it more and then headed out to Early doors to the rain, and the maxxd meeting.

There has been a lot of new faces on maxxd recently, its awesome. I just hope they dont get made to feel unwelcomed by anyone. I had to sell some stickers nad ocllect money from people for clothing etc. Ill probably be ordering the tee’s n shit today - so if anyone reading this wants anything you best hurry up and get in touch!

Had a text off dave this morning. The chap who owns the house i rent a room in has had a scranny at him this morning. We are not allowed to smoke in the front room - on the leather sette’s, and i think hes found a ash tray near one.. Its a bullshit rule he made up about a month ago, due to him being lazy and not being arsed to clean and condition his leather. It winds me up, cos i know when i get home ill have him moaning at me, and to be fair he’s the most difficult person ever to live with. He leaves his clothes EVERYWHERE, leaves packaging from food EVERYWHERE (with food in still sometimes.. yes.. manky!), has HALF done EVERYTHING in the house.. the only completed room in the whole house is my room, and thats cos i did it myself! Id really like to leave, but i cant afford to live anywhere else. And i dont want to buy/rent a house and fill if full of crap only to have to get rid of it all in a few years. But i REALLLLY cant see myself putting up with his bullshit for too much longer.
Time will tell i guess…

August 23rd, 2006 by 0lly

Ok, so i got fined £30 yesterday. And for ages i was totally gutted. I felt so miserable that i had to hand over £30 of my hard earned money to a bunch of wankers for something i shouldnt have to pay for. Then last night whilst i was handing over £10 to my mate in exchange for something that someone had grown in their airing cupboard, it suddenly dawned on me. I waste a LOT of my money. And although i shouldnt, and dont really want to - I keep on wasting it! Now i wanted to calm down on the weed buying, as its bankrupting me. But i was v depressed yesterday so i needed to get wrecked - and boy o boy did i get wrecked
Me scott and the big dog have decided that after Trax, were all gonna collectivly try and quit smoking weed. Its really hard to do it by yourself, cos everywhere you go someone is blazing it up - but if we ALL quit then we can all support each other etc. And hopefully we can make to so that weed smoking is reserved for Xmas time and Hamster Jam trips
Ive kinda cheered up since i realised that another £30 of my cash down the toilet isnt really that much of a big deal. If i can spend £30 less this week weed, then the fine would not of technically not consumed any more of my cash. And if i can get into the habit of spending a lot less on it in general - which to be fair i have done this last week thanks to being broke as fuck - i should generally be better off.

While im on the subject of money, every time i get paid from security i seem to have something crop up. This week im gonna be paying off the debt i have to me mate dave, and i got a cheque for credit card going out - so by the end of this week ill basically be broke as fuck again. What annoys me about this is that the security money is supposed to be going in my ISA, to go towards my traveling fund. But every time i comes thru, i have a bill, debt, car repairs etc etc..

One day ill be on top of my finances.. And although ive been saying that since i was 18 - it does feel like its getting closer.