July 31st, 2006 by 0lly

I was being driven to work on saturday evening with the fond memories of the crazy BBQ the night before still lingering in my mind, when i struck up a conversation with my boss who just happened to be giving us the lift to the sites that day. I asked him if he had seen the Da Vinci Code, and he became the first person i that had asked that question, to give me a negative reply.

He started goin on about how it was a ridiculas idea that jesus still had a blood line in france etc etc and that the reason the dude looks like a lady in that painting is that artists in that era DID paint people more feminine looking.. pale faces etc. He also believes that jesus was gay, and that being gay wasnt looked upon as being a bad thing back then. Quite controversial! Me Like!
Anyway, he started talking about judas (a word i remember Fi using as a tounge-in-cheek addon to insulting names for people, something to do with jews.. meh) And he started talking about the lost gospels of judas. He went on to tell me that instead of judas being the bastard that he was made out to be, that instead he was actually following orders from jesus to grass him in to the 5-0. It got me quite interested!

Now im not religious in any way, i dont really believe there is a god, but i believe all these people in the bible and other such historical religious books were real. They were obviously extreme religious people, and in a similar way to how samurai’s walk on fire and glass and seem to defy gravity and belief, these religious guys were probably able to perform stunts that came from focusing energy hard enough, that would shock bystanders into believing they had special powers of some kind. These people gave others hope, and for that they were immortalized in books and scripts, and in later years these books were used by people to gain hope. Religion is about hope i guess, it gives some people meaning. It just provides me with interesting reads

LSOM went brilliant, loads of cars, models, 2 biger vans, an Ice cream van, about 5 photographers and 1 x fair ground ride!

We raised £430 for the Sherwood Forest Hospitals Cancer Appeal. Sweet!

Back to work tomorrow after a weekend of bizarre sleeping patterns. Should be a enjoyable walk to work tomorrow. Bah!

July 27th, 2006 by 0lly

I think i deserve an early night. Its 22:26 as i write this, and i recon ill be tucked up by 23:00. I cant remember the last time i had a decent nights sleep. At one time i knew the exact amount of sleep i would need to feel bob on in the mornings. I dont know about any one else, but i feel SHIT if i dont have enough sleep, and i feel SHIT if i have too much sleep..

The balance has probably shifted now cos im gettin older, shouldnt i be waking up rate early and doin all that shit older people do? My dad gets up at like 6 every morning even sundays.. The guys mad i tell ya. I suppose i still do things that make me more tired than your averige joe. Like abuse myself regulary
Anyway, sleep. Goin to a BBQ tomorrow, and i havent got to work till saturday night which is a bonus. Woo! A friday i can finally look forward to!

July 27th, 2006 by 0lly

As time ticks on, a pattern emerges,
I get quite depressed, my image submerges,
For no real reason, im always unhappy,
Pissed off with work, and where i live is just crappy,
Been stuck like this now, for quite some time,
Cant blame any one, my life is mine,
And like i seem to be telling, a lot of my friends,
Life is for living, but that all depends,
On the card’s you’ve been dealt, and your chosen hand,
Are you making the correct long term plans?
I always wanted, the best of the best,
I wanted to succeed, and prove wrong the rest,
But now my aims have declined quite rapidly
Gone from big conglomerate, to round the world traveling,
And i guess the long wait, until im twenty five
Is adding to the depression, I suffer in my life
But if im honest the time will fly
It wont be long until im saying goodbye
And you’ll have no more Olstar to say hello too
Oh my god, what’s the world gonna do?

Heh..

July 26th, 2006 by 0lly

Ok, so i lost my bank cards didnt i. I last saw one of them the day after i went out last week. The other, fuck knows.. Ive looked for them for 3 days, and this morning i rang up canceled them and ordered some new ones. Now, not having a bank card or a car that works properly means i havent been able to draw any of my money out. Which has meant ive not been able to buy.. Anything! And thats actually meant me eating very little for 3 days. I was starving - and i mean STARVING by the time i got home from work tonight.

Lucky for me my wonderful father picked me up, and took me for a steak. Then as id told him id lost my cards, he proceeded to give me £30 to keep me going. I love my dad hes great. Ill give him the cash back like, much to his shock id imagine
And ontop of a steak, me and scott went to asda and i bought a pizza, which i nearly ate all of. I feel so fat now. I could be sick…. *ralf*

Ive kinda been negleting my resoncibilities recently. Especially this week. I put it down to me feeling kinda depressed at the mo - a subject i dont want to bore myself, or anyone reading this - of any more. Ive also been very busy, so its hard to do too much and still find time to sit back and chill.

I gave blood today, something i think everybody should do. You’d all want blood if you were in a car crash or something. So dont be gay and scared of needles that dont even hurt. Get signed up or something!

www.blood.co.uk

July 25th, 2006 by 0lly

I haddnt realised it but i have slowely been letting things mount up making me quite depressed. Work is getting me down, and a few other personal things included mean’s one depressed oliver! The only thing that seems to take my mind off it is the time i spend with H.

I decided to treat myself to a bit of e-retail therapy. I constantly scoure ebay for stuff, more specifically - Camo adidas stuff! And i found something i bought STRAIGHT away! Buy it now rules!

Why i dont own one of these already ill never know. I dont even know if its genuine adidas. I do know it says adidas on it, it has camo on it and it cost me $27.34 DELIVERED from the states… thats £14.78! Now thats an ebay bargain!

There are two pairs of trainers, and another top that i want and then thats me done for a bit. Its mad how spending money cheers me up, ill be even happier when my stuff lands on my doorstep woo!!

And i have decided that as long as i can get more security shifts, im definatly handing my notice in on friday. I will give them 3 months notice so they can find someone, and i can show them what to do etc. I havent told my parents yet, i dont know how they react. They both know i wanted to leave but were just egging me on to stop to ensure a regular wage. But work is such a big part of my life at the moment, and i just dont have the time or interest that the person doing my job should have.

Anyway, i have to be at work at 8, after id been there today from 9:00am-9:30.pm… Bloody pedigree dog food marquee!

July 25th, 2006 by 0lly

Yes, ive had another one of those conversations with my boss. I think craig has mentioned that im unhappy, and he got me in his office to as me what was up. I ended up telling him everything, how im unhappy in general at the moment and that the job im doing isnt helping at all. As long as i dont leave them in the shit and give a good notice period he is fine about me leaving. He understands that people have dreams and he realises that no one is gonna stay in the same place forever! But at the same time he has asked that i spend 100% of the itme when im here on WORK work, and not personal stuff. I have no issue with this.

So i think ill hand my notice in at the end of the week. Matty posted this cool site with letters of resignation already made up but i dont want to offend my boss, or burn the bridge between me and work. You never know i might need a job one day and this place mgiht be the only joint hiring!

I dont want to start another job, i think im gonna ask for a few more security shifts - and then devote the rest of my time to the things me and dave are doing. As weve started looking into something this week that is hopefully going to be a very sucessful service we offer to people. It just requires a lot of attention from us both.

Im slowley sorting our hosting clients out too. Its taking forever as its one of those really tedious jobs that annoy me. Ill get it done this week im sure. Then we can find out how much were gonna actually have to shell out to fund this server this year.

July 24th, 2006 by 0lly

My memory has suffored a turn for the worse. I have been very very forgetfull today and have been getting wound up very easily. I have for example been going downstairs to fetch something, end up doing something totally different, comin back upstairs to remember what i originally went downstairs for, going downstairs again and forgetting once more. Yes, really that bad..

I only have myself to blame, the constant abuse of weed is blatently surpressing my memory and making it fuck up. I wonder what i would be capable of if i didnt smoke weed? I wonder if al the little annoyances i have with myself would vanish? Its an issue im gonna have to definatly address soon as sooner or later im gonna go past a point of no return and regret it.

Same old story tho, lack of willpower and motivation. Its only really started playing on my mind when i it was brought to my attention that the slight circulation problems i think i have are probably down to the fact my arteries are clogged up to fuck. It makes me sick to think about it, but yet i still sit here smoking.

I hate myself sometimes..

July 24th, 2006 by 0lly

It feels like i havent been to work for ages. I hate coming back here when ive been happy and content, as coming here makes me miserable and stressed out. It reverses the good that the 3 days off has done to me. Oh how i cant wait to have the rest of my life off!!

I have chosen a few things on eBay, although i bet i dont win them! There are a few pairs of trainers that are pure SEX, one in particular! They have quite a few days left, and they are rare un’s so i doubt they will go for less than 50/60 quid.

Prob not to everyones tastes, the ones on the left are Super Skates, not Superstars - but the shiney weaved pattern makes them rare and SEXY! The ones on the right are called SKYLINES as they depict a city scape view on the side of them. They are pretty lairy and i dont know when i would wear them but id certianly like to own them

I get to see H tonight, im glad things got sorted and seem to be setteling down now. I thought i had fucked up and lost her for a while. But i think were ok and back on track. Its not like the relationship is really heavey, we both have a lot to do and have important thigns in our lives - but that shouldnt mean you have to spend your free time alone does it?

Shes one of the few females i know that i can sit down and talk to for hours and hours and hours. We are on a very similar wavelength, not exactly the same one, but a very smilar one. Shes not a bitch either, and has been thrown a lot of raw deals all her life - which i think has made her into a very interesting person. And, she makes me happy.
Anyway, i best do some of this work as its not gonna print its self. Unfortunatly. How good would that be?

July 23rd, 2006 by 0lly

Yes, my glorious 3 day weekend off from life is over. Ive not done much at all, and ive slept a shit load. Its been all good. I dont get much time to do nothing anymore, i seem to be busy with something or other most nights. I guess thats a good thing tho or i would end up extremly fat and lazy.. Oh wait i am anyway! Bwhahha..

Im getting really pissed off with missing eBay auctions. I used an auctionsniper the other day and ive won stuff with them before but i have changed my eBay password since and it couldnt connect to my account so i lost some kicks i would of won! I just keep forgetting to check eBay, and i have like £60 in my paypal account that dying to be made into 2 bargain pairs of sneaks!

Before i sleep im going to find some good kicks to go in my watch list. Theres some RHCP 35th ones in a UK12 that im watching, but i bet woody off my superstar site is watchin them as well. The seller is the guy who wouldnt supply me with genuine pics of some Run DMC ones, so he couldnt turn out to be a cock end and be selling fakes. Im gonna get woody to ask him for pics i think, cos he’ll remember me and probably tell me to go f**k myself.

Its a shame there are so many pricks out there that sell fake trainers and try to pass them off as real ones. If you have a colourway that is limited to 500 pairs in the world (like the Super Ape Star’s) then releasing fakes devalues an absalutly gorgeous sneaker. There are so many SHIT fakes as well that to an unsuspecting buyer they are some mad colourway, but to us in the know they are just a REALLY shit badly colour matched FAKE!.

Adidas superstar fans of the world, check your purchases are real/genuine before buying!

Ask the pro’s!

http://www.superstarDB.com

July 23rd, 2006 by 0lly

The best way to forget that youve waxed about £80 over the duration of the weekend, is by waking, and baking! By baking i dont mean the creation of fluffy cakes covered in delicious icing. I mean waking up, rolling up, and lighting up a joint. As in the mornings im still very sleepy when i wake, so a early morning reefer makes me feel hazy and relaxed. Ahhh

We had a mad night last night. I didnt do much during the daytime, in fact, i dont even remember what i was doing now. But as soon as the evening came round me and scott got our shit together and headed off to Wisbech to pick dave up and then go onto the cruise.

It took us TWO hours to get there, it didnt seem like it took us that long to be honest, but it did - and we eventually found dave and headed off to the cruise. I dont think ive ever been to a cruise this far away from our main area to be honest. Well, at least not this far in this direction (south? south east?) And for that very reason it made it good as there were lots of cars id not seen before.

The cruise itself was alright, ive been to MUCH bigger tho, and i recon the only reason max power were there was because of how close to their main offices it was. But it was still a good cruise. Proper old skool one too, burnouts galore!

Im pretty gutted ive spent so much money this weekend, i guess its whats made it a good’en tho. I still have a bit if cash left and i get paid again on wednesday so hopefully i can afford to get my clio fixed this week and then i can put it up for sale. Then, theres nothing stoppin me!